Bali Musings Day 8-12 | Travel

The rest of my time in Bali blurred together as I packed, babysat, wandered around the island soaking up all the beauty, and spent any spare minute I could with friends. I know I’ll never forget these moments as I grow up. Going to church for the last time was filled with hugs and laughs as we all masked our disappointment. We even went out to lunch with Kat, Jax, and Lyssa. We realized that every time we went somewhere after church, it was with this original group, and every time we’re so tired we’re all delirious, acting crazy and talking nonsense. I remember looking at this group of friends feeling a sudden surge of hope in my chest. I went so long thinking I’ll never make friends to suddenly having three great ones.

All the way up till our last day, I had the time of my life. Even if there were times I broke down and gave into the feeling of hopelessness, realizing I’m leaving the place where my whole life consisted, yet again. I pushed that aside, though. I refuse to feel that way. This move will be good for my family and I, I repeated in my head. This is good. 

As days of bowling, bird parks, and escape rooms past, and the day of the move looms closer, we put the finishing touches on our house. I went outside to take a Polaroid photo of the home we lived in for the past two years, smiling at all the memories. I realized that I am more than satisfied with the time we spent here. Staring at my house, I looked back at the memories forever engraved in my head: the beach, friends, church and ministry, stepping out of my comfort zone, and feeling and being closer to God than I ever had before. And later, sitting on the plane towards Jakarta, I can finally start feeling excited for the new adventures waiting for me there.

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Wow! The last post of the Bali Musings series. I hope you all enjoyed, I know I have! I hope you didn’t mind the ups and downs of my emotions over the week, this was literally my inner monologue during this time.

This was the place of many firsts for me, and I was so glad it was here. Living in Bali was never meant to be permanent, and so is living in Jakarta. I guess growing up in this certain lifestyle affected my way of feeling and allowing myself to feel accepted and that I belonged. Unfortunately for me, as I began to feel that way I only had a few months left, only I didn’t know it yet. I hope I can feel that way in Jakarta again. I hope I won’t allow myself to build walls around my heart so tall that it takes years to break them down again. I hope I let people in, even though I know I’ll leave again.

Bye for now, Bali.

love, jane. aka the unlost wanderer.

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Bali Musings Day 7 | Travel

This morning was filled with chaos and stress. With the moving truck coming in only three days, we rushed to touch up anything that was worn out from use. As we finished, we made plans with some friends who are visiting from California to attend a wedding. We ate lunch and had ice cream, laughing at their four year old son’s antics. He insists on calling me “Tante” which is usually reserved for close friends who have children. (Don’t worry, you won’t find me having a child at age sixteen.)

Since they had just arrived that day, we took them to a supermarket where they can go to the ATM, and buy water and snacks. As we were saying our goodbyes for now, (I’ll be babysitting their son in few days,) Jax’s mom and sister came in, who is also one of my friends. Let’s call her Kat. Kat and her mom were waiting for Jax to finish a lesson, so they decided to shop and eat at the little café they have there. We introduced Kat and her mom to our friends and before long, our friends left to go to their hotel and we were left with Kat and her mom. Jax came when he was finished and we all made plans to watch a movie the next day.

We went home and I watched my youngest sister swim while my other sister made dinner and my mom went off doing who-knows-what. After my sister finished swimming, I settled into bed getting ready to watch some YouTube videos. The perfect end to a perfect day, well, minus the chaos and stress part!

love, jane. aka the unlost wanderer.

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Bali Musings Day 6 | Travel

It was nearly 2:30 when excitement came today. We were off to pick up a few friends to watch Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2. Let’s call them Maile and Lyssa. Another one of our friends, let’s call him Jaxon, was already at the mall and had bought our tickets. We picked up Maile, Lyssa, and Lyssa’s mom,  because she’s a friend of my mom’s and decided to hang out together while they waited for us to finish watching. Squishing into the car, (my two sisters were there as well,) we laughed and joked while my younger sister did Maile and Lyssa’s nails in the back seat. The movie was at 4:00 but it was about 3:20 when we got there. Lyssa and I went off to buy snacks the sneak in the theater, while Maile and my sister decided to sit down somewhere to finish doing their nails. Meeting Jax at the theater, I bought Maile her popcorn, since her nails were still wet.

The movie was like a rollercoaster of emotions, which was suprisring to me, since this was a superhero movie. Jax made fun of all my emotions during the movie but it’s okay because that movie was amazing. (Baby Groot is SO cute.) We stayed until after the credits because Marvel gave us trust issues and after the credits ended, we went to find our moms. We found them at a restaurant where we would eventually get all our nails done by my sister. Including Jax but that wasn’t even the first time, haha. Leaving the mall, we dropped Maile and Lyssa home but I still felt empty inside. Don’t get me wrong, I had the best time ever and I love all my friends dearly, but this feeling still keeps coming back. Maybe that’s just me pulling away emotionally before I get hurt. It’s happened before and I won’t be surprised if it happens again.

love, jane. aka the unlost wanderer.

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ps- sorry for the lack of photos lately! wordpress isn’t letting me upload them for some reason!

Bali Musings Day 5 | Travel

Feeling much better this morning, I convinced myself to make the most of the day. It was a Sunday, so that meant church. I packed for an hour or so and eventually got ready to go to church, which starts at 10:30. After waiting for my sister to get ready, we headed off to church! We sang and danced and had the best time. My friends and I planned to go out to lunch after the service but we weren’t expecting a portion of the worship team to come as well. (Not that that was a bad thing, the more the merrier!) We ate noodles and coffee, played Jenga and cards, and overall laughed a ton.  As the lunch came to a close, a few of us planned to watch Guardians of the Galaxy Vol. 2 the next day.

After going to the grocery store, we drove back home and started packing once again. My room is mostly empty, now. Times like these I wonder why I attached myself to this place when I knew I was leaving soon. However, knowing I made friends with people I knew I would talk to for the rest of my life quickly erased the dread. I recalled this verse I memorized during school, Jeremiah 29:11. “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you, not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.”  I have a hope. I have a future. God knows my plans and I will not let darkness overcome me again.

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love, jane. aka the unlost wanderer.

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My Thoughts On Harry Potter.

I didn’t grow up reading Harry Potter or Lord of the Rings or any book most people my age identify as the pinnacle of their childhood, but better late than never, as they say!

One of my dear friends found that me not knowing anything except the existence of Harry Potter was unacceptable, so we began a Harry Potter marathon.  We only got through the first three movies, but I was hooked. I wouldn’t watch the other movies without her because I was afraid that I would be madly confused without her to explain things to me. (Bless her heart, she never lost her patience whenever I’d ask a question every three seconds.)

Another friend of mine found out that I’ve never read the Harry Potter series and lent me the first book. However, my family and I were right in the middle of moving, so I didn’t have any time to read the book before I had to return it, (much to my disappointment). Thankfully the Harry Potter series is available on Kindle Unlimited, so I downloaded it and just finished Harry Potter and the Philosopher’s Stone two days ago.

Also, is it Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone or Philosopher’s Stone?? I see it both ways and I’m really confused…

I admit I was a skeptic at first because I was afraid it wouldn’t be as good as everybody makes it be. But boy was I wrong! I found myself emersed in this wonderful world of magic, wonder, and Quidditch.

I have to say that when I first watched the movies I absolutely hated Draco Malfoy, and that feeling only increased when I read the book. This is only the first book so I suppose I shouldn’t judge so harshly (even if I had seen the two following movies). I love the loyalty Ron, Hermione and even Neville have toward Harry. I can only wish that I had friends like that in real life. Hagrid is adorable even if he is like 20,000 feet tall, Dumbledore is a trip and I’m not even getting into Professor Snape.

I don’t regret watching the movies before reading the books because frankly, the movies helped me picture everything in my mind more easily. I’m definitely excited to read the other books in the series, but I have exams coming up so I’m going to use Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets as a reward when exam season ends.

love, jane. aka the unlost wanderer.

ps- Who are your favorite characters from the Harry Potter series?

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Let Go and Let God.

Have you ever heard that term? Let go and let God? I have. A ton. And I’m starting to think that that is easier said than done. You see, I grew up in a Christian family, I went to church pretty much every Sunday (except for the period of time when we were in-between churches,) and I’m active in both my church and youth group. I’ve listened to the bible stories in Sunday School, I’ve paid attention to the sermons, and I’ve sung the songs, but it always seemed like something was holding me back. I don’t have a super inspiring testimony, which is okay, don’t get me wrong, but there is always that one question in the back of my mind that never goes away: why do I feel like there’s a void between me and God?

I was talking to my friend the other day and he said to me: “I haven’t really given up everything for God.. I want to glorify His name and do everything according to His purpose. If God’s path is adventurous and challenging against the world, I’ll go for it.” 

That got me thinking. I was holding me back. I haven’t given all of myself to God. I realized that I was scared of giving up control of my life, which is silly, because how can you control life? This isn’t a healthy way to live. Being a “control freak” isn’t going to help anything, so why not just go with the flow?

So starting right here, right now, I’m giving up 100% of me. Starting now, my priorities are going to change. No more of school first or family first. I’m putting God first, and it’s going to change everything.  Right now, I’m letting go and letting God.

“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God.  I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10

love, jane. aka the unlost wanderer.

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